Impossible Utopia

Frequently I find myself battling with duality.


I know that a “perfect world” is practically impossible, but I keep seeking Utopia.  It seems the answers to all of our problems should be relatively simple– the real complication is human imperfection, but most commonly: greed.


I’ve spent a large portion of my life complaining about why things aren’t as good as they could be.  It always seems so simple.  Why are there homeless people in North America?  Why are there hungry kids in Africa?  Why do people kill for diamonds?  Why, why, why?


Asking “why” isn’t very productive; society at large would have us believe that it’s not at all productive: “Don’t ask why!  Just accept it and move on!”

Yet that creates a problem: if we don’t ask why, we don’t uncover the source of the issue.  If we don’t know the source, how can we solve it?  How can we make a better world?


The Taoists believe that we should accept our reality as it is, without judgment, and let that be.  I’m sure it’s more complicated than that, but that’s the jist of what I’ve learned about them (so far).


Plato, on the other hand, talked about the “forms”.  The “form” of something, was it’s ideal existence.  Without having a “form” (a model) to guide us, how can we know what to strive for?  We could toil all the days of our lives toward an end, but if it’s not the best we could have done, what was the point?


I subscribe more to Plato’s ideals, but that’s where I come back to duality: they seem to conflict, yet both are true.  We must accept the world around us as it is– not judging, or pining over how it could be— and yet, at the same time, we must strive to make it better.  How do we make it better if we really accept it?  How can we say we’ve accepted it, if we’re trying to make it better?


This is my struggle.  Any insights?


Living Intentionally

A lot has been said on this topic, and I won’t expound it further, but I feel that I needed to briefly address something that changed my life– or at least, contributed to that change.


My favourite author has long-been Charles Ludwig Dodgson– a.k.a. “Lewis Carroll”.


A lot of misconceptions exist about Carroll, his drug use, etc; these are indeed, misconceptions, based on little more than speculation regarding the oddity of what he wrote.  I’m not addressing this further, however, in this particular post.


He once wrote in a letter to a friend, “To be sure, the best rule is that we should not dare to live in any scene in which we dare not die.”


I found this to be profound, and it set me on a path.  I quit my job working at a call centre shortly thereafter, and have been making choices to increase my happiness more than my wealth, ever since.  I don’t regret it, even though I now find myself lacking in funds compared to the majority of people I meet my age (or even younger).  I’m also currently in a place where I’m somewhat forced to chase the money– however, I’m now doing it on my own terms.

What Carroll wrote doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t ever do things we don’t want to do– he means that we should live deliberately; live through our intention, and not just pass day by day with no purpose, or simply by “accident”.

Whatever you do today: choose to do it.  Don’t let it choose you.

Peace. ❤


I open my front door, and peer out at the “world” around me: I see a serene suburban street, pretty quiet with but a few cars passing now and then.  It’s drizzly out, everything is coated in a thin wet veneer, and somewhat sparkling as the sun cascades softly through the mild cloud-cover.

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Balance Shifters

I write this for myself, and for you.

Is it more for me?

Is that relevant? If it benefits us equally?

Does it matter if I write for my own ego?

If this is to make me feel better or bigger, does it really make a difference, as long as the words hit home?

You matter.  You are important.

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